What will I Be

I have tried several times to write my thoughts here, but every time the words seem to play hide and seek and I find my self sitting here with my head full of thoughts but my computer remains blank. There is something that lingers, something that's waiting far beneath and I don't know for how long it will stay away. I have a thought, a mission, a feeling, waiting to be revealed, but for the moment not even I know what I'm waiting for.
There are so many things I wanna do with my life, so many things life seems to want to do with me, but still I cannot find my straight and honest way of living. Where am I supposed to be?